thank you *hug* sadly, this is how i have felt pretty much since i was hospitalized and started on the meds back in like, august. it has just intensified a bit recently because it has been so long, and i remember how happy i was this time last year and that just makes me sadder, for the loss and how hard this year has been. but i know i have good people in my life for support and i have things i can do that make me feel better, like music and art and writing to friends online and looking at the moon, etc... and the fact that i am able to name these things off that help, mean i am not doing so bad where it is impossible to have hope, and i was in a place like that for many years, so i have come pretty far and i try to recognize that and give myself credit, and know that i can get through this too, so that makes it a little better.

thank you lorraine (: