anyway, i just wanted to vent, and also say that it fucks with me, because sometimes i think that he is right, but then i think of the beautiful diversity in this world... one of my favorite things about the world, and how boring and cold the world would be if all men were like him and all women, whatever his ideal for that is, would be. i sometimes get in this rut where i see him as a perfect man, but then i remember his imperfections are to me, some of the worst ones to have. his anger and hate and closed mindedness and stuff like that are all pretty bad. i love him, but i have to remember that no one is perfect, but it saddens me that i will never ever be the son i want to be to him. i am changing my ways and becoming a better person, and i had struggles that he did not have because of the body i grew up in. things he could never understand without having walked in my shoes. i just want to be able to be truly proud of myself at some point, because i know i will never get it from him. i'm working on getting there with myself but it's a hard journey. thanks for reading. peace
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anyway, i just wanted to vent, and also say that it fucks with me, because sometimes i think that he is right, but then i think of the beautiful diversity in this world... one of my favorite things about the world, and how boring and cold the world would be if all men were like him and all women, whatever his ideal for that is, would be. i sometimes get in this rut where i see him as a perfect man, but then i remember his imperfections are to me, some of the worst ones to have. his anger and hate and closed mindedness and stuff like that are all pretty bad. i love him, but i have to remember that no one is perfect, but it saddens me that i will never ever be the son i want to be to him. i am changing my ways and becoming a better person, and i had struggles that he did not have because of the body i grew up in. things he could never understand without having walked in my shoes. i just want to be able to be truly proud of myself at some point, because i know i will never get it from him. i'm working on getting there with myself but it's a hard journey. thanks for reading. peace
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Writer's Block: First Amendment
because FUCK you! no, that's not my real answer but i'm lazy and going to bed
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Writer's Block: Words to Live by
"the truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off" - gloria steinem
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Writer's Block: Thank You Month
a couple hours ago to my parent's for having me for dinner and i will again when i pray tonight. i am big on gratitude and i think it is really…
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