djcliche (djcliche) wrote,

Writer's Block: It wasn't me.

Did you ever do anything in your youth that you lived to regret? Do you think you ultimately learned from it or do you wish you could go back in time and do it over?

in general, i try not to regret things, even the bad choices that turned my life into the nightmare it was for so long, because that nightmare made me a warrior. it made me strong to have survived the hell i went through. but there are a few things i still regret. i hurt some people in my life who did not deserve to be hurt and i brought my nightmares into their pleasant dreams. i do regret that. unless of course they see it as part of what made them, if they are at peace. if they are not at peace with themselves and i am the reason for their being broken, then i regret that. i do forgive myself for the things i did, because i never meant to hurt anyone. but if i caused them pain that they have yet to recover from, i do feel responsible. maybe it isn't regret exactly. but it's something and i definitely feel it.
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