i never liked much of anything in school. i was decent at English, but only because i could write. i've never been a great reader. i'm slightly dyslexic, but it doesn't effect my reading as badly as my math. when i write things down with a pen, i often put them in the wrong order, and i'm very bad at transferring numbers in the correct order. if you write the numbers in the wrong order when you are doing math, you are fucked, if you write a word in slightly wrong order, you can still tell what the word is.
i actually have a very mathematical mind in some ways. like, when i close my eyes, i can see infinite fractals and shapes. i calculate everything i do, but i don't see it in numbers, i see it in space and in my mind and other ways i don't have words for.
science has always been frustrating to me, because it seems to be about "how" things work. and i was always more curious in the "why" and not the "how". i appreciate science, and i believe in it, but it is personally unsatisfying to me.
i know psychology is sort of a form of science, and i am a huge fan of psychology. same with sociology. i did not take my first psych class until i was 16 years old though, and i was at that point a more avid learner because i was going to a school that taught me in ways i could actually learn, and it wasn't until i went to that school that i had any idea that i might actually be smart.
history though. that is what i want to get to. i hated history so much all through school, even at the alternative school where it was taught in a slightly more interesting way. i just couldn't dig it. the dates and names and political parties and the "reasons" that led to war. it never caught my attention. it was booooooooring!!!!!
but i took a class on ART history at my high school where we studied many artists and attempted to work in their style. my art teacher was also my English teacher and she brought much of the work from our art history class into English as well. when we were studying abstract expressionism, we learned about the painters as well as the jazz musicians who inspired their work and read poetry from the Harlem Renaissance.
we did a collaborative cray pas drawing on a huge sheet of roll paper in English class while listening to Duke Ellington, Dizzy Gillespie, Ella Fitzgerald and Billie Holiday. i had never heard of any of them and it was great. We let the music inspire the art. We worked to the music. In our Art History class soon after that we did a collaborative abstract painting in the style of Jackson Pollock, and we took turns playing music we had picked out specifically for the project. there was grunge, rap, classic rock, metal, pop, classical and hardcore punk on the mix. That was one of my favorite things i ever did in school, so when i got to community college, i took art history there too. we had to go to museums a few times as assignments and i wound up getting a job at one of them. i did very well in the class and my professor loved reading my thoughts. i learned a lot in her class too, although it wasn't as "hands on" an experience, my interest had peaked and i learned a lot from her too.
i started to realize that history is a lot more interesting when you see what the wars and people and dates etc, inspired in the people. the movements that were made are a lot more interesting to me. when you see what people did and the art they made to express how they were feeling about what was going on, it made me more curious to find out what was going on.
i love learning about history now, but it has to be brought to me in a way that will not bore me. because it can still be boooooooring in many forms.
yesterday, a friend on facebook posted a link to a version of the song Wade In The Water. it was hearing that song that inspired me to make a post, and this livejournal topic seemed to fit it perfectly, so i went with it...
one of the ONLY things i remember learning about history in elementary school was the story behind that song. when you hear a song so beautiful, you know there is pain and life changing experiences behind it. you can just feel it. and when you hear the story of how that song came to be, you cannot erase it from your mind.
The Brotherhood performs Wade In The Water
Anyway, as an artist, i hope to be able to have work that will last so long that it becomes historical evidence of what is going on now.
there are a few more history related videos under the cut. Eva Cassidy's version of Wade In The Water (cause it's a cool version), a little music and storytelling and comedy too...
oh yeah, and here is that NEW VIDEO of the Ukrainian artist who was on the Ukraine's Got Talent. She tells the story of Germany's invasion and occupation of Ukraine during WWII. It's the best thing i've seen in awhile.
Eddie Izzard stand up with a bit about religious history
Eva Cassidy sings Wade In The Water
Brief History of the US Cartoon
The Most Dangerous Woman in the World by Utah Phillips and Ani Difranco.
Utah Phillips speaks on War and Non Violence among other things
Dead Prez- Police State
Dion- Abraham, Martin and John
Give Peace a Chance by John Lennon and Yoko Ono
Hurricane by Bob Dylan