i feel alone and afraid
more than ever
or just all at once.
inside this warrior
is a destroyed child
just a shadow
of a man
because the man was lost.
i'm empty
i'm confused
i'm completely still
while the movement
of those around me
haunts me
and irritates me
and i want to scream
stop!
slow down!
wait for me!
but no one waits
no one waits for anything
we keep going
but i stopped going
and i don't know
if i will ever be able to catch up.
i want to
i want to go further
than anyone has ever gone.
yet here i sit
alone and afraid
tracing my shadows
with a pen.