i called my friend to let him know he can't stay with me for awhile. it was a hard call to make, but he didn't seem surprised, and was actually very nice about it. he told me i was his best friend and that he knows he is stressing me out. i wanted to tell him he is my best friend too, because he pretty much is... i just don't know how i feel about that. it is by far the most complicated friendship i have ever been part of. but i do love him and i actually even miss him when he's not around, but lately when he's been around he hasn't been much good company. i mostly just want him to take care of himself because i can't do it for him. i know others have taken the same approach with me and i am stronger for it. i'd like to see him do the same.
i didn't go to my program today. i just wanted to sleep all day. i would have slept until tomorrow if i could have. depression is a bitch sometimes, but i have been a bit more inspired lately. here is some of my art i did tonight.
it's called Surprize! You're a Hermaphrodite!
this one is called My Transition from FTM
this is called Peace Plant
and the last one here is called Queer Hop