socializing takes practice. i am getting better. i still fail about 75% of my attempts, but i keep trying. i am also still working on healing my wounded soul. my soul is much stronger now, maybe more than ever in my life, but life is still a major challenge. i was very ill. i have worked hard all year on rehabilitating myself so that some day i might function like a "normal" human being. i have a long way to go, but i have come very far.