i have this friend. we will call them K. i met K several years ago at a mental health related thing. K grew up in the same town as me, but is several years younger, so i never knew them in school. when i met K, we talked about how hard it was, growing up as a queer kid with mental illness in the town we grew up in. We both have PTSD. K told me that the main cause of their trauma, was that they were bullied and tortured on a daily basis by 2 of their peers. I forget if i asked K their names or if they just told me, but i was not expecting to even know who these kids were. Let's call them C and M. C and M tortured my friend K on a daily basis. i admitted that i knew both C and M, but did not explain to K that C and M were like a sister and brother to me. C and M are not blood related to me, but they are children of some of my parent's closest friends, and we grew up together. i wasn't too surprised to hear about C, as i know when she was in high school, she was part of pretty much like a girl gang that actually targeted my little sister for awhile, until C found out and put a stop to it. And it was that simple... the girls never fucked with my sister again because C and my sister are family of sorts... like C and i... and the same goes for M, because he is family to me too. But my family tortured my friend... my friend who is in many ways, a lot like me. a lot more like me than any of my family is like me.
i love C and M although i have not actually seen either in years, but i feel confused about why they did that to K and if it had something to do with me and if they had never known me or had known me in some other way, if K might not have suffered.
ps, i just dropped a plate on my toe! owwwwwww