May 24th, 2009

crazy bass

Songs About Mental Illness. Part 1

Because it is the 1 year anniversary of my nervous breakdown and has been almost a year since i have been in the psych ward. It is the longest i have gone without going into the hospital in many years.
I have Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, or C-PTSD. My first hospitalization was when i was 15 years old, in 1993. I have been hospitalized about 100 times, no exaggeration. The psych wards were like a second home to me. I used to feel safe there, but things changed and i feel safer not being there.
Over the years, going in and out of the hospitals, i have run into a lot of the same people who also went in and out of the psych ward. I know that at least 4 of the people i knew well have committed suicide. It is a painful way to live. I'm glad i am doing better, but i know i may fall again, so i have to always be prepared.
Peace. Enjoy these songs.

Metallica- Welcome Home (Sanitarium)

The Kinks- Acute Schizophrenia Paranoid Blues

Geto Boys- Mind Playing Tricks on Me

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