August 7th, 2008

me with graffiti

Writer's Block: Less Than Idle Hands

Do you have any odd nervous habits?

yes. i twitch and grind my teeth. i try to work it into my movements but i always look like a freak. i never used to have this problem. i used to be able to pass as normal in society while feeling abnormal. i don't know how to communicate with people anymore.
i want to see my friends and family, but i find it very difficult. i'm so embarrassed by the way i was acting for however long it went on. Now i am feeling better, not the full on craziness that i went through thes past few months. i feel mostly calm, although a little lonely. i am thinking of doing a day program to try and get back into the swing of things. maybe being social every day at a day program will help me to stop my nervous twitches and teeth grinding. i hope so.

i am cutting down on smoking a little too. i have a bad caugh and i want to be well. i want to feel good physically and mentally. it is sometimes hard to maintain that cuz of that thing called life, but i want to do my best to live a good life, and right now i'm still struggling upward from a really low bottom. i think i can make it back though. and all the support helps.
thank you.
dj kewl


Jefferson Airplane was a trippy band from the 60's & 70's that played at Woodstock and took lots of acid and made music about peace. Here is a sample of them performing White Rabbit and Somebody to Love.

In the 70's they became Jeferson Starship and then in the 80's they got a hit with this song that i always hated "We Built This City" and they were just called Starship. I heard this song on the radio today and actually listened to the lyrics, and i understood that how Jefferson Airplane felt about the 60's was very different than how they fel in the 80's. This song was like them saying "HEY! WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED? We thought we made a difference."