today i had a lot of anxiety, but managed to make everyone at the program laugh with a funny thing i said. i was happy to make people laugh i like to make people smile.
i also managed to get to the grocery store to buy a few tthings i needed, but was pretty anxious and spaced out because of it and only managed to buy a few things. i wish i had gotten some ice cream cuz i'm craving that now, but i did get some yoplet yogurts that will have to satisfy that craving... i also got nutella and bagels... i will make one of those later. i just ate a tomato mozerella salad.
i have been doing jumping jacks and lifting weights... trying to stay in good enough shape to fight if i have to, although i hope i don't have to. but if i do have to protect myself, i want to be ready. i wish i didn't have to even think about that stuff, but so be it.
anyway, i am getting by. peace