i imagine God has a lot of things to take care of. i could not imagine what is on God's to do list. i have faith that God is doing whatever is on top of his to do list right now.
i kind of wish i knew what was on God's to do list however. But i am a human, so i am not supposed to know. i just pray that the good people in this world can recognize themselves as such. It took me a long time to realize i am a good person. I feel a lot of guilt for a lot of things i wish had gone differently. Right now i feel worst about how many friendships i have fucked up in my life because of trust issues. Whenever i begin to trust a person, i start to run from them as well.
People say you can't tust anybody, but i believe otherwise. i think all people were made good. The people in my life who have left did not leave because they were not trustworthy. They left because i acted like i did not trust them. I did not show the actual appriciation that i had. Instead i showed fear and anger.
But the question asked in this entry is just not something i feel i can answer. Right now in my life i just pray that a higher power is taking care of buisness, and i believe it is, even in this mess of a world we live in... there is still beauty everywhere.