true

he was pretty horrid

well, very true. and no. he wont be missed. you're right, everyone dies, good and bad. i just didnt want to rant all about the negativity as i was posting, but he was a creep. i didnt even know he was racist too. i thought he just hated gay people. i read somewhere that he called all black people "freds". i've never heard that expression, but its pretty fucked up when you're a senator and act the way he did.
although a lot of people are just as hateful towards minorities and they just pretend they arent by respecting other minorities with money, and i find that kind of shady too.
i lost a friend a few years ago to suicide. he was half black, 18 and into punk music. He was suicidal and i took him to a hospital ER that was always good with treating me respectfully, but we got this racist lady who said that she thought he was lying about being suicidal and that he was just looking for food and shelter and she refused to admit him. He killed himself the next day. It seemed so wrong to let this 18 year old kid who was so wonderful just die because she had the authority and made her own assumptions. Had someone like Jesse Helms been there and insulted him to his face and called him a "fred", we could have told the administration there that we wanted a second opinion by someone who was not racist, but she pretended like it had nothing to do with race, but it did. Sometimes its easier when people are openly racist cuz at least you know their motives are fuct up. This woman in the hospital played it like it had to do with all this other bullshit, but it was still racism.
I really miss the kid. He was like a brother to me.
sorry i'm rambling.

it is sad, yeah. i miss him