djcliche (djcliche) wrote,
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Acceptance

Everyone wants to be accepted. Me included.
Who or what don't you accept, and why, if you know why?

i don't accept people who tell me who or what is acceptable. Telling me who or what YOU accept or don't accept is different than telling me who or what I CAN or CAN'T accept. So go on and be honest. What is unnaceptable to you?

Also, it should be noted that i have done things that i find unacceptable. Because of these actions, i have sometimes found it hard to accept myself.

For instance, after i was gang raped when i was 12, i raped my boyfriend. I was a girl at the time and i pressured my boyfriend to do things he wasn't ready to do, and then i humiliated him for not being ready.

I have driven drunk, and while high, which i find unacceptable. i have even done it with kids in the car. It is not okay, and i should not have done it, but i did.

It is not acceptable to me to steal from friends or independantly owned companies, (or at all) but i have. I have lied to people i love. I have made people feel bad because i feel bad. I have done a lot of bad things. We all have.

Maybe you can't accept me now that you know that i have done these bad things, but i accept myself for being human.

We all want to be accepted.
Most of the things i did that i found unacceptable, were things that i have had done to me or i've hated about others.

But that is how the cycle works. If you hate hypocrites, you are doomed to be in misery and self hatred, because you are a hypocrite. We are all hypocrites.

The key to ending the cycle is to forgive others and forgive yourself. Admit that you are a sinner and accept it.

What is hardest for you to accept?
Is it yourself or someone else or both?
Lets get to the bottom of this.

Am i sorry for the bad things i've done? Yes i am. Is sorry enough? I don't know. But i think that forgiving others for reacting badly to the same triggrs is a step in the right direction. I can only hope.
Tags: acceptance, forgiveness, sins, truth
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